The padlock is closed -- Clochard’s BTS 2007 blog – Lesson two – Day two

The padlock is closed

My respects Akasha and MissBlue

First of all I want to thank Miss Blue for leaving a comment on my blog. I’m very happy she has appreciated the picture of my red ass. I’ll take an other soon… I hope to receive my slut-paddle in a couple of days (it’s in the plane according to UPS) and offer her a beautiful photo of my butt stamped S-L-U-T as she deserves.

Next, I notice that I’m not any more an administrator. I know since the beginning that it would happen. The only unknown was when. It’s very erotic!
Imagine a slave waiting his Mistress against a Saint Andrew ’s cross. He is not tied up. The time is passing. He knows he could leave. What hold back him? The desire, the desire to obey. He’s waiting. Does she forget him ? He is alone, The room is dark, cold. If this waiting would be useless, futile? If she has found a better servant? If he is rejected? Suddenly he feels her presence. She’s approaching silently, she is closing the padlock without a word. Click… a simple noise stronger than an order. Click… impossible to go back, to say “no sorry, I’ve made a mistake”.
This morning, when I logged on to my blog, sorry to our blog, I felt exactly that. I’m the author but your are the ink.

I’ll masturbate three times as each day. But I don’t want to come. No I want to feel my submission, to give up my desire and feel our pleasure…. When a man reaches the edge during masturbation, just before the ejaculation, there is a little contraction in his cock, a sort of a body’s shout. His body says to his soul “let me come” but his soul is silent, it's no longer owned by his body, it's owned by someone else, by Her.

« Voir c’est croire mais sentir c’est être sûr » said Marquis de Sade
I can traduce it by “Seeing is believing but feeling is being sure”

Disturbing…

With respects
Clochard

Clochard’s BTS 2007 blog – Lesson two – Day one

My respects Akasha and Miss Blue

1°) I continue masturbation three times a day. I never come but it’s obviously more difficult now! I produce more and and more pre-cum and I always eat it for you Akasha and MissBlue because a good slut must eat is own production… I’m getting more and more excited.

2°) I spanked my ass with a wooden spatula (I don’t receive my Stockroom’s order). Not to punish me (I don’t cum) but in order to give you a bit of pleasure and because I’m just a poor slut. I spanked me twenty times and each time I thanked you for allow me to be your slut. Of course a wooden spatula is not a paddle. I took a photo but it’s a closer than it would be. You can only see a bit of my red ass…



3°) I put clothes pegs on my nipple. When I was younger I used to practise nipple torture with clothe peg I know the pain it’s more powerful when you put it off than when you put in on. I wore it (like a whore? surely) during twenty minutes. Then I called you. I was very excited, with no doubt too much because my voice mail was very poor, you deserve so much better! Excuse me to be so pathetic! I took an other photo because my pain was not very noisy. You can see one of my nipples with the clothes peg mark. But when I’m suffering I’m always very concentrated and I start to sweat. But my mind was very close of my goal which is to be one of your slut .

Sorry to not be the slut that you deserve.

With respects
Clochard

Clochard’s BTS 2007 blog – Lesson one – Day three

I hope you spent a nice Sunday. I was very excited all the day long. It’s the first time I assume my submissive feelings. It’s a mix of fear, happiness and excitement.
Fear because I don’t know if I’ll manage to reach the end of the training.
Happiness because the waiting is a sweet sensation. In a certain way, I give you the right of driving my life during 2 or 3 weeks and I’m very happy with that. I hope you will read this blog and be entertaining by your French slut. I don’t want to achieve a fantasy, I want to by your slut, to replace my desire by your desire. I want to touch a moment of abandon trough the submission.
I masturbated three times without cumming. My desire, my excitement is becoming a great energy and each denied of orgasm is like a rope, a bond. Each time, I’m closer to you, and each time I’m more submissive.

Do whatever you like. Use and abuse of me, transform me into your bitch for your pleasure...

Waiting your next order.

Best regards and respects

Clochard

Clochard’s BTS 2007 blog – Lesson one – Day two

My respects Akasha and MissBlue.
As you command, I masturbated myself three times without cumming.

The first time, as you had guessed, I masturbated in the same time I was listening your first audio training lesson. I was so exciting of hearing your voice. It was very erotic. Of course you make this mp3 files for all of yours slut but each of us believe a bit it’s just for him. It was a great masturbation and I stopped just before cumming, ready to be your whore, to improve my submissive skill and open my mind for your desire.

The second time, I masturbated in front of the pictures of my future school supplies.
- The paddle: Mmm, a very good choice, I’m looking forward to having it! I will use a wooden spoon by waiting. I really want to offer you a good picture of my red bottom; I feel myself such a slut!
- The Dr. Sado Head-Ring with Spikes: Finally I’ve decided to buy this one. I’m not an expert in CBT but I prefer to have plenty of scope for expanding, and it looks so terrific! I’ll use clothes peg by waiting
- The inflatable dildo: Ouch!! It’s really scaring me!! My ass will become a railway station with this one! In fact, I finish my masturbation by thinking of this huge dildo in my little ass. I’ll use my vibrating plug by waiting.
I reached the edge, thinking that my goal is to be your slut, your toy during this training and I love that because I’m a submissive whore.

The third time I masturbated I was in my bed. I was listening again your audio training. It was very sweet. I was thinking of being your 24/7 slave. To serve you, to be your slut, it’s a really a sweet desire.

Oh, I’m such excited now!
Have a sweet Sunday Akasha and MissBlue.

Best regards and respects

Clochard

Clochard’s BTS 2007 blog – Lesson one – Day one

Thanks for Akasha and Miss Blue for allowing me to be one of their Slave and Slut School Students. 4 S, for us, who want to teach how to be a good whore… Frightening and exciting isn’t it?


Me in three points:

• I’m French, sorry for my English.. I’ll try to do my best to understand the instructions and complete the homework in time (sorry for he time difference!).
• It’s my first experience in domination, please Akasha and Miss Blue, try to be indulgent with me. I don’t know if I’ll manage to pass this training but I’ll do my best.
• I will try to do at less two updates for each lesson. One when I listen it the first time and a second after doing my homework with all of my feelings.

N-B: I’ve bought the inflated dildo, the paddle and the parachute ball as you wish but I’ll not receive them before the middle or the end of the next week. I shall do my best to replace them until I could use them.

A nice day for both of you, Akasha and Miss Blue, I’ll listen my first lesson again and follow your instructions.

Best regards and respects

Clochard