The padlock is closed -- Clochard’s BTS 2007 blog – Lesson two – Day two

The padlock is closed

My respects Akasha and MissBlue

First of all I want to thank Miss Blue for leaving a comment on my blog. I’m very happy she has appreciated the picture of my red ass. I’ll take an other soon… I hope to receive my slut-paddle in a couple of days (it’s in the plane according to UPS) and offer her a beautiful photo of my butt stamped S-L-U-T as she deserves.

Next, I notice that I’m not any more an administrator. I know since the beginning that it would happen. The only unknown was when. It’s very erotic!
Imagine a slave waiting his Mistress against a Saint Andrew ’s cross. He is not tied up. The time is passing. He knows he could leave. What hold back him? The desire, the desire to obey. He’s waiting. Does she forget him ? He is alone, The room is dark, cold. If this waiting would be useless, futile? If she has found a better servant? If he is rejected? Suddenly he feels her presence. She’s approaching silently, she is closing the padlock without a word. Click… a simple noise stronger than an order. Click… impossible to go back, to say “no sorry, I’ve made a mistake”.
This morning, when I logged on to my blog, sorry to our blog, I felt exactly that. I’m the author but your are the ink.

I’ll masturbate three times as each day. But I don’t want to come. No I want to feel my submission, to give up my desire and feel our pleasure…. When a man reaches the edge during masturbation, just before the ejaculation, there is a little contraction in his cock, a sort of a body’s shout. His body says to his soul “let me come” but his soul is silent, it's no longer owned by his body, it's owned by someone else, by Her.

« Voir c’est croire mais sentir c’est être sûr » said Marquis de Sade
I can traduce it by “Seeing is believing but feeling is being sure”

Disturbing…

With respects
Clochard

Clochard’s BTS 2007 blog – Lesson two – Day one

My respects Akasha and Miss Blue

1°) I continue masturbation three times a day. I never come but it’s obviously more difficult now! I produce more and and more pre-cum and I always eat it for you Akasha and MissBlue because a good slut must eat is own production… I’m getting more and more excited.

2°) I spanked my ass with a wooden spatula (I don’t receive my Stockroom’s order). Not to punish me (I don’t cum) but in order to give you a bit of pleasure and because I’m just a poor slut. I spanked me twenty times and each time I thanked you for allow me to be your slut. Of course a wooden spatula is not a paddle. I took a photo but it’s a closer than it would be. You can only see a bit of my red ass…



3°) I put clothes pegs on my nipple. When I was younger I used to practise nipple torture with clothe peg I know the pain it’s more powerful when you put it off than when you put in on. I wore it (like a whore? surely) during twenty minutes. Then I called you. I was very excited, with no doubt too much because my voice mail was very poor, you deserve so much better! Excuse me to be so pathetic! I took an other photo because my pain was not very noisy. You can see one of my nipples with the clothes peg mark. But when I’m suffering I’m always very concentrated and I start to sweat. But my mind was very close of my goal which is to be one of your slut .

Sorry to not be the slut that you deserve.

With respects
Clochard

Clochard’s BTS 2007 blog – Lesson one – Day three

I hope you spent a nice Sunday. I was very excited all the day long. It’s the first time I assume my submissive feelings. It’s a mix of fear, happiness and excitement.
Fear because I don’t know if I’ll manage to reach the end of the training.
Happiness because the waiting is a sweet sensation. In a certain way, I give you the right of driving my life during 2 or 3 weeks and I’m very happy with that. I hope you will read this blog and be entertaining by your French slut. I don’t want to achieve a fantasy, I want to by your slut, to replace my desire by your desire. I want to touch a moment of abandon trough the submission.
I masturbated three times without cumming. My desire, my excitement is becoming a great energy and each denied of orgasm is like a rope, a bond. Each time, I’m closer to you, and each time I’m more submissive.

Do whatever you like. Use and abuse of me, transform me into your bitch for your pleasure...

Waiting your next order.

Best regards and respects

Clochard